..heartbeat..

dearest bloggie,

so many things happened during dis 2months.. and none of it within my intention.. things jz got pretty serious between me and him lately.. although we are together.. but there are parts of his life where i think he dun want me in it.. i thought of it and i will give him space that he needed.. i know that he loves me as much as i do.. dats all dat matters.. we still not each other's.. so i gez i wuden want to stop him from anything.. if he wants to leave me.. i will let him.. ade jodoh.. adelah.. kan? maybe m not the best of him.. well everyone wants the best for themselves.. but for now.. he IS the best for me.. and i hope i do for him.. we haven't been a year old yet.. so i think there are things that yet to come.. if we are strong and meant for each other.. i gez there'll be no problem at all.. and for sure.. dis few weeks has been miserable for me.. but as soon as i hear his heartbeat.. i feel paradise.. i feel dat faishal is a part of me now.. ....

..thru the difficulties of life..

my heart break to see him sad.. it's like thousands of splinters penetrate thru me.. i dun think i can stand another humiliation like this.. i need to get beside him.. to stand wif him.. he is going thru one difficult phase.. i know that he is sad.. deep down him.. i want him to know that i will love him no matter what happens.. come hell or high water.. but to see his smile fading away is like watching sumbody die.. o mighty god.. may you help him to become stronger.. may our love will never die.. may we become forever..


dear,
i'll be your shoulder..
thru bitter and sweet..
as long as god permits..
amin..

nervous breakdown.

i never been so much lonely in my whole life. they said stupid people get involve in stupid things. am i a fool? for letting those whom i love the most hurt me. so badly dat i think i want to run away. far away from this place. maybe m being paranoid. maybe i am. but the feelings keep getting worse. smile dat almost faded. voice dat almost faint. i wish i cud dissapear to the thin air. before i lost myself.

how i wish.

Artist: Michael Buble Album: Call Me Irresponsible Title: Everything

You're a falling star

You're the get-away car

You're the line in the sand when I go too far

You're the swimming pool, on an August day

And you're the perfect thing to say

And you play it coy, but its kinda cute

When you smile at me you know just what you do

Baby, don't pretend that you don't know its true

'Cause you can see it when I look at you

chorus:And in this crazy life

And through these crazy times

Its you, Its you

You make me sing

You're every line

You're every word

You're everything

You're a carousel

You're a wishing well

And you light me up, when you ring my bell

You're a mystery

You're from outer space

You're every minute of everyday

And I can't believe that I'm your man

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can

Whatever comes our way, we'll see it through

And you know that's what a love can do

(Chorus)So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

And in this crazy life

And through these crazy times

Its you, its you

You make me sing

You're every line

You're ever word

You're everything

You're every song

And I sing along

'Cause you're my everything

Ah- yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la,

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

dear sayang..

no matter how hard i want to hate you when you dun call me..

no matter how tough our relationship cud be..

one thing for sure..

you're my everything..

luk...








too many damn lame excuses...





but i need to swallow it so dat it won't taste like sour milk later...

naseb saje aku nie gf yang bek..

damn shyt!~

maleh la nak pikir paper~

seriously...

maleh nak pikir pasal lelaki... they sucks!~

missing you like hell!~

why everything seems to go wrong when i dun see him..

god... help...